regrets.

I wish I could change some of the things about how I've acted in the last couple months. I guess I'm just disappointed in myself. You know, I told her if she loved another person then I would learn to be ok with that, because I wanted her to be happy but really I just wanted us to be happy. And when she didn't get anything, I felt terrible for her, you know her heart is breaking right now and I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be and so I wish for patience and grace and strength to just let her be happy and mostly I pray for the strength not to make her life worse because of what I want. That’s the toughest part, letting go, you know. That’s the part of grace that really sucks.